1. |
growing colder
02:46
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(i don't stay)
(i don't prey) this how it goes
(i don't break) yeah
(sing this song everyday) ey
i be up on top lurking
got no job, but it's working
got no love, but it's worth it
i don't wanna be a servant
sitting on top observing
looking at people swerving
i don't wanna make ‘em nervous
living above the surface
come back down when they caught me (caught me)
press me down like a copy (copy)
swinging on me like rocky (rocky)
none of that shit gon' stop me (stop me)
living on top i'm scary (scary)
i know i make 'em wary (wary)
harmless like a canary (canary)
but they just want me burried (burried)
they don't want me to get older (i don't stay)
so i keep on growing colder (i don't prey)
put my hands up on my shoulders (i don't break)
i'm just bracing so it won't hurt
looking around i see nobody that's friendly (yeah)
took so many insults they cannot offend me (they don't)
i fought back, but i don't think that really helped me (nah)
took one swing that's plenty (yeah)
(took one swing that's plenty) (ey)
'cause i know nobody's watching my back (no)
talking 'bout me and they twisting the facts (yeah)
i know they waiting for me to attack (yeah)
looking below and i see all the traps (ey)
but i stay out the spotlight (spotlight)
walking on top the faultline (faultline)
don't respond to a callsign (callsign)
making up my own plotline (plotline)
yeah, i wanna live in silence
i'm not prone to violence
they looking at me violen
'cause i am not compliant
screaming at me in distance
nobody wants to listen
looking at my position
but they can't see my vision
climb back up and i move out (move out)
fuck 'em all i just groove out (groove out)
but i can hear a few shouts (few shouts)
police come like a shootout (shootout)
miscommunication ('cation)
everyone lacking patients (patience)
i gotta live evasive (evasive)
defend myself, abrasive (abrasive)
they don't want me to get older (i don't stay)
so i keep on growing colder (i don't prey)
put my hands up on my shoulders (i don't break)
i'm just bracing so it won't hurt
looking around i see nobody that's friendly (yeah)
took so many insults they cannot offend me (they don't)
i fought back, but i don't think that really helped me (nah)
took one swing that's plenty (yeah)
(took one swing that's plenty) (ey)
'cause i know nobody's watching my back (no)
talking 'bout me and they twisting the facts (yeah)
i know they waiting for me to attack (yeah)
looking below and i see all the traps (ey)
but i stay out the spotlight (spotlight)
walking on top the faultline (faultline)
don't respond to a callsign (callsign)
making up my own plotline (plotline)
that's why i'm gone, moving on, i don't stay (i don't)
im alone, on my own, i don't prey (i am)
fuck 'em all, i don't fall, i don't break (nah)
sing this song everyday (yeah)
(everyday, ey)
they don't want me to get older
(looking around i see nobody that's friendly)
so i keep on growing colder
(took so many insults they cannot offend me)
put my hands up on my shoulders
(i fought back, but i don't think that really helped me)
i'm just bracing so it won't
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2. |
paranoia
03:12
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i've been
fighting
so far (they won't let me go)
hiding
they've been
silent
so far (i will take control)
hiding
ten days i've been on the road
no one coming on patrol
i feel like im on parole
should feel like im in control
i feel like i'm on the list
all black, but i'm hard to miss
all free, but i'm not convinced
i know that i co-exist
look back like "i know they're watching!"
no one's there, but i know they're plotting
i go above to know what the plot is
can't let them get me in the optics
stop myself like "is it a figment?"
got no proof, but i got commitment
see no lights looking in the distance
up all night 'cause i'm not convinced yet
i've been
fighting
so far (they won't let me go)
hiding
they've been
silent
so far (i will take control)
hiding
no one to compare a thought
i know that i'm all i got
no home and i won't get locked
no door and i won't get blocked
move quick so it's hard to aim
i want to be out the frame
in range so i'm not insane
think fast so i can't explain
ten days and i'm optimistic
i don't talk so i try to listen
i count steps and i count the distance
can't get me based on statistics
more i run, more paranoia
all these thoughts and i can't ignore them
i see signs and i can't destroy them
stop myself, but i can't avoid them
i've been
fighting
so far (they won't let me go)
hiding
they've been
silent
so far (i will take control)
hiding
so what now?
take a look around
nowhere to be found
living out of bounds
don't know where i am
i don't have a plan
looking at my hands
don't know if i can
picked this path and i cannot drop it
fear in my head and i cannot stop it
i wish i could switch the topic
but i'm looking back and i feel i've lost it
can't go further, i've done the distance
can't go back, i don't want to risk it
all my thoughts are pessimistic
maybe i've been trapped to begin with
(they might know where) i've been
(all i know is) fighting
(i've been running) so far
(i know what they're) hiding
(looking back where) they've been
(all i do is) silent
(i've been running) so far
(i don't know where they)
(i will take control)
i've been
fighting
so far (they won't let me go)
hiding
they've been
silent
so far (i will take control)
hiding
(stop myself like "is it a figment?")
i've been
(got no proof, but i got commitment)
fighting
(see no lights looking in the distance)
so far
(up all night 'cause i'm not convinced yet)
hiding
(more i run, more paranoia)
they've been
(all these thoughts and i can't ignore them)
silent
(i see signs and i can't destroy them)
so far
(stop myself, but i can't avoid them)
hiding
(i will not lose)
(yea
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3. |
make it back
03:26
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(this is why i do this shit, you know?)
(fear and adrenaline, and rush, and stress)
(makes these type of moments feel like... just... bliss)
i got scars, i don't need tattoos
might be dumb, but i'm not confused
i don't work, but i got my use
do no harm, but i break the rules
always calm when i make 'em snap
scared of me, but i make 'em clap
know my place, but i got no map
shining bright, but i'm dressed in black
go too far, but i make it back
(go too far, but i make it last)
(they don't know) but i make it back
(got nobody i need to ask)
go too far, but i make it back
(shout at me, but they won't distract)
(climbing down) but i make it back
(i've been shook, but i stay intact)
go too far, but i make it back
(got my goal, i don't need a map)
(off the road) but i make it back
(know my place, but it got no flag)
got too far, but i make it back
(took a win, but i do not brag)
(took a loss) but i make it back
(on my own i will make it last)
i got scars, i don't need tattoos
i'm on top, i don't need the views
been some time, but i make the news
on my own, but i do no lose
always calm when i make 'em snap
settle down, but i don't unpack
mask on me, but i do not act
took a hit, but i do not crack
go too far, but i make it back
(go too far, but i make it last)
(they don't know) but i make it back
(got nobody i need to ask)
go too far, but i make it back
(shout at me, but they won't distract)
(climbing down) but i make it back
(i've been shook, but i stay intact)
go too far, but i make it back
(got my goal, i don't need a map)
(off the road) but i make it back
(know my place, but it got no flag)
got too far, but i make it back
(took a win, but i do not brag)
(took a loss) but i make it back
(on my own i will make it last)
and i always run away, when it makes me (fear)
lately i just feel so cold, that it shakes me (fear)
i just wanna be alone, but it takes me (fear)
i don't wanna feel low, but it breaks me (fear)
and i gotta stay awake, 'cause i can't sleep
maybe if i try to shout, then it can't speak
i just wanna be alone, but it takes me
i don't wanna feel low, but it breaks me
yeah it breaks me...
living above and looking below
give my view, but take it in slow
scars on me, i'm making it show
light me up, i'm making it blow
got one take and it's all in frame
got one shot and i do not aim
got so cold that i feel no pain
chase me down, but it's all in vain
pass me by, but you cannot move me
got my faults and you can't improve me
don't belong so you can't exclude me
don't stay long so you can't excuse me
got my goal, but i got no duty
making it rain when i feel moody
covered in mud, i see the beauty
looking above, they won't confuse me
(go too far, but i make it last)
(they don't know) but i make it back
(got nobody i need to ask)
go too far, but i make it back
(shout at me, but they won't distract)
(climbing down) but i make it back
(i've been shook, but i stay intact)
go too far, but i make it back
(got my goal, i don't need a map)
(off the road) but i make it back
(know my place, but it got no flag)
got too far, but i make it back
(took a win, but i do not brag)
(took a loss) but i make it back
(on my own i will make it last)
(i really need that contrast between...)
(between safety and danger)
(when i just... stay in one spot too long i lose..)
(you know, i lose the feel of the world)
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4. |
twist and turn
02:54
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looking outside my window (window)
feel like i'm lost in limbo (limbo)
i cannot leave my temple (temple)
i cannot think that simple (simple)
never know what i'm feeling (feeling)
everything's unappealing (unappealing)
i don't want anyone near me (near me)
i cannot let them steal me (steal me)
one more day - can make it (make it)
i cannot sit i'm shaking (shaking)
i wanna leave i'm pacing (pacing)
fill my backpack, place it (place it)
but i feel i can't go yet (can't go yet)
many things i don't know yet (don't know yet)
i cannot trust my own head (my own head)
i don't feel i control (control)
yeah, i never felt this before (felt this before)
i'm falling but i'm standing on the floor (standing on the floor)
said (said), i never felt this before (felt this before)
i'm falling but i'm standing on the floor
i twist and i turn and i toss, i wake
every door is locked, but i do not feel safe
i twist and i turn and i toss, i wake (toss, i wake)
every door is locked, but i do not feel safe (but i do not feel safe)
don't, don't you take it away
i only feel myself when i'm afraid
said, don't, don't you take it away (take it away)
i only feel myself when i'm afraid
yeah, living in this confusion (confusion)
i cannot think i'm losing (losing)
maybe i find it amusing (amusing)
because it's all i'm choosing (choosing)
feel so mad i could riot (could riot)
ask me, but i deny it (deny it)
feel i'm afraid to try it (to try it)
it's easier to be quiet (to be quiet)
one more day i can make it (make it)
it's getting hard to fake it (fake it)
i don't wanna talk, i evade it (evade it)
feel so mad i embrace it (embrace it)
i cannot stay, i'm leaving (i'm leaving)
i will be gone this evening (this evening)
don't what i believe in (believe in)
everything feels like dreaming (dreaming)
yeah, i never felt this before (felt this before)
i'm falling but i'm standing on the floor (standing on the floor)
said (said), i never felt this before (felt this before)
i'm falling but i'm standing on the floor
i twist and i turn and i toss, i wake
every door is locked, but i do not feel safe
i twist and i turn and i toss, i wake (toss, i wake)
every door is locked, but i do not feel safe (but i do not feel safe)
don't, don't you take it away
i only feel myself when i'm afraid
said, don't, don't you take it away (take it away)
i only feel myself when i'm afraid
it's all a game
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5. |
intervals
02:43
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(i can't stop it)
(i don't wanna love you)
looking out the window demotivated
everything is grey and i don't feel like it's captivating
got nobody with me, i can tell that i'm suffocating
every other day i'm waking up and i'm aggravated
i don't really know what i can do with these intervals
maybe i can look at everything as a metaphor
i feel like i working with myself like a saboteur
living like a prison and i cannot get out the door
but that's how it goes
i've been through a lot and i made it back (made it back)
looking at the footage and i know that i'm talking facts (talking facts)
i get out the way because i don't wanna interact (interact)
nobody can tell me what to do 'cause i made it that (made it that)
i'm the only one that i believe in when looking up (looking up)
everything they told me up to now isn't good enough (isn't good enough)
everything i've done was up to me and it wasn't luck (it wasn't luck)
even when i'm down, i don't feel i'm ever stuck
(everything is grey and i don't feel like it's captivating)
(got nobody with me, i can tell that i'm suffocating)
(i get out the way because i don't wanna interact)
(nobody can tell me what to do 'cause i made it that)
nobody can get me it's complicated
mainly 'cause i never even tell them, i'm isolated
working every day, but i made nothing i'm celebrating
got a lot of headaches and i'm feeling decapitated
i don't even wanna think about what i'm missing out
looking out the window, but i feel like i'm falling down
maybe i just need to get away 'fore i hit the ground
everything i got is nothing i cannot live without
but that's how it goes
i know that i have to regain the focus (regain the focus)
everybody looking, what i see - they will never notice (never notice)
i've been through a lot and i know nothing is ever hopeless (never hopeless)
put a lot of working, but it's never been for the bonus (not for the bonus)
living on the run, but there is nothing i wanna chase (don't wanna chase)
nobody can ever slow me down, got a stable pace (stable pace)
i be on my own, but that will never make me afraid (i'm not afraid)
looking in the mirror - nothing i wanna change
(working every day, but i made nothing i'm celebrating)
(got a lot of headaches and i'm feeling decapitated)
(i've been through a lot and i know nothing is ever hopeless)
(put a lot of working, but it's never been for the bonus)
but that's how it goes
yeah, but that's how it goes
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6. |
feeling my best
02:24
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(only looking up)
(i've been down enough)
(yeah)
taking it back to the time when i had no money to spend
everyone clowned me looking around me - had no friend
living in town where nobody spoke in the way i tend
had my dream and i knew one day i would be content
yeah, feeling my best
walking i puff my chest
talking i see my breath
and i got no regrets
they cannot see my steps
i cannot see their threats
take on solid breath
and i don't feel upset
taking it back to the time with the police at my door
did many mistakes and i had to pay cause i had my faults
didn't know my path and one wrong step could've been my fall
took my time and i made it work 'cause i knew my call
yeah, feeling my best
walking i puff my chest
talking i see my breath
and i got no regrets
living above the mess
got nothing to confess
made my own defence
need nobody's expense
and i'm looking up
i know where i'm going
i've been down enough
yeah, only looking up
i know where i'm going
i've been down enough
taking it back to the time where i felt like i was stuck
ten days gone, but i come back home and it feels undone
put a lot of pressure on myself to be in front
but i let go of all of that and now there's none
yeah, feeling my best
walking i puff my chest
talking i see my breath
and i got no regrets
got no one to impress
i don't need all that stress
i wanna feel my best
and i think that's success
taking it back - i don't wanna forget the shit i've been through
when i feel down, i gotta remeber it's nothing new
looking above i always saw what i pursue
covered myself in dirt - that's how i grew
yeah, feeling my best
walking i puff my chest
talking i see my breath
and i got no regrets
getting back to my desk
getting things off my chest
take one solid breath
and i'm back on a quest
and i'm looking up
i know where i'm going
i've been down enough
yeah, only looking up
i know where i'm going
i've been down enough
(only looking up)
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7. |
never follow you
03:13
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what about 'em days?
maybe i don't change
what about 'em days?
maybe i don't change
from the polar night
yeah
i'm the only one (only one)
like the setting sun (setting sun)
like the final day of autumn before winter comes (winter comes)
but i'm never done (never done)
i be on the run (on the run)
looking at me dumb, but i go and make it back
they don't wanna say it back
i will always stay intact (stay intact)
never crack, but you know i gotta break away
never gonna fade away
always try to stay awake (stay awake)
make it fun, when i play the game (play the game)
they be talking like i don't where i am (don't where i am)
i be on my own and you know i don't need a plan (i don't need a plan)
i don't feel like anything i do is out of hand (do is out of hand)
i've been through a lot and i learned everything i can (everything i can)
they be looking, but i'm never found
going where i'm not allowed
when i doubt, i do everything to take it slow
i know it can take a toll
i don't wanna pay it though
if i want then i make it so
lately i feel like nobody understands (understands)
they be talking to me, but i just don't give a damn 'cause (damn 'cause)
i'll never follow you (follow you)
yeah, i'll never follow you (follow you)
only looking up (looking up)
like a flower bud (flower bud)
like a tree that doesn't feel like it is tall enough (tall enough)
i keep climbing up (climbing up)
i don't wanna jump (don't wanna jump)
don't believe in luck, but i gotta take a chance
i'm the only one who can
may not even have a plan (have a plan)
but i go, and i do my best to make it through
i can never follow you
i would rather be recluse (be recluse)
make it simple when it's time to choose (time to choose)
they be talking like i don't where i am (don't where i am)
i be on my own and you know i don't need a plan (i don't need a plan)
i don't feel like anything i do is out of hand (do is out of hand)
i've been through a lot and i learned everything i can (everything i can)
they be looking, but i'm never found
going where i'm not allowed
when i doubt, i do everything to take it slow
i know it can take a toll
i don't wanna pay it though
if i want then i make it so
lately i feel like nobody understands (understand)
they be talking to me, but i just don't give a damn 'cause (damn 'cause)
i'll never follow you (follow you)
yeah, i'll never follow you (follow you)
i'm the only one (i'm the only one)
like the setting sun (like the setting sun)
like the soaring mist (like the soaring mist)
when the morning comes (when the morning comes)
i don't wanna stay (i don't wanna stay)
i don't wanna run (i don't wanna run)
i be on my way (i be on my way)
'cause i'm never done ('cause i'm never done)
i feel like i've just begun
i will never be in front
all i wanna have is fun
every single day and month (day and month)
i will never quit (never quit)
when it's said and done (said and done)
i'm the only one (i'm the only one)
so what about 'em days?
(what about 'em days?)
maybe i don't change
(maybe i don't change)
like the setting sun
(like the setting sun)
but i never fade
(but i never fade)
i've been growing cold
(i've been growing cold)
running all the way
(running all the way)
from the polar night
(from the polar night)
to the polar day
(ey)
they be looking, but i'm never found
going where i'm not allowed
when i doubt, i do everything to take it slow
i know it can take a toll
i don't wanna pay it though
if i want then i make it so
lately i feel like nobody understands (understand)
they be talking to me, but i just don't give a damn 'cause (damn 'cause)
i'll never follow you (follow you)
yeah, i'll never follow you (follow you)
they be talking like i don't where i am (don't where i am)
i be on my own and you know i don't need a plan (i don't need a plan)
i don't feel like anything i do is out of hand (do is out of hand)
i've been through a lot and i learned everything i can (i’ll never follow you)
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